Another
New Year’s Eve…and I had no desire to be out. Not to mention that the rain
didn’t help matters either. Long gone are the days of partying at bars or clubs
for NYE. I usually receive a few invites to friends’ homes, where there are
intimate gatherings or larger parties. Those types of NYE outings have made me
happy and I get to spend it with the people who mean the most to me.
For
the last couple of NYEs, I have every intention of making the rounds and then
spending midnight at one of the friends’ houses. But something shifts and I
start feeling like I don’t even want to venture out the door. I can’t explain
it. I’m not trying to be anti-social, but it’s been very comfortable to be at
home with drink in hand, watching DickClark’s New Year's Rockin’ Eve. Perhaps I’ve finally matured enough to be
completely OK with being by myself, on an evening that others place so much
importance on “being with” someone. Or perhaps it’s laziness. LOL
Don’t
get me wrong – I’d like to have a “someone special” in my life. But I’m one of
those girls, who doesn’t define herself by the man in her life. In my early
20’s, due to the poor choices that youth makes, I staked my life and identity
on a man. And it took a while to find myself again after it was all over.
Lesson learned. For me, there are many special someones in my life: the
siblings (don’t tell them I said that!); good friends I’ve known for decades;
the nieces that I adore; the nephew who thinks he’s too cool for his old aunt; the
cousins that I think of as siblings and friends; the business partner who seems
to know me better than I know myself at times.
So
last night, as the evening progressed, thoughts of all these special someones
came in and out of my mind. The memories we’d made together, the laughter &
tears shared, the good times & the bad (thankfully, more good than bad),
thoughts of what 2013 would bring for us all. And it was very comfortable and
comforting. I hope that my wonderful friends who extended invitations to me
will understand!
Happy
New Year!!!
P.S. Don’t usually make resolutions…I have one for
2013 – to write on a regular basis. You guys can hold me to it!
Forty is the new 20, right? Ha! I am buying that one. Look at you being amazing. I am holding you to your 2013 resolution so look forward to me bugging the crap out of you.
ReplyDeleteI prefer to spend New Years Eve home too. I think it is part of maturity and realizing that you are happy in your own skin and enjoy your own company. Who needs to brave the cold, the crowds, the drunks to have a happy, reflective moment on what they year has brought us.
Keep writing!